9) Goodbyes are hard...like...really hard.

09 Feb

I thought this all would have been easier second time around but it turns out that the prospect of moving nearly 6000 miles away from my family makes the whole process even tougher. 

People keep asking me if I’m excited to go to Brazil, and of course I am...but it’s a strange type of excited. In the midst of the sadness of saying goodbye, it is hard to feel “outwardly excited”. If a word existed which was a hybrid of nervous and excited then that would describe what I’m feeling exactly. 

When I went to Spain, it was easy. I had been to Spain countless times, I had already been to Madrid and I was fairly confident about the level of Spanish that I had. With Brazil, everything is different. I’ve never been to South America, I’m not 100% confident with my Portuguese and it’s even hard to imagine what will it be like living in country that I have only really read or heard about through university and the news. 

Despite all these fears, there is one thing that gets me through. Knowing that this is all part of a bigger plan is the most comforting thing. 

The verse John 20:21 keeps coming up time and time again. It was one of the main verses used at our Latin Link training weekend back in June last year, and was also prayed over me during my time in Madrid. It’s a verse that I had never really given much thought before, but I know that it has given me strength these last few weeks in particular.

{“Again Jesus said, “Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.”}

Here are a couple of things that I have learned while processing this passage during this last while..

  1. Jesus was SENT, not to do His own will, but to do the will of His sender (God)
  2. Jesus hungered to do not what he wanted, but rather what the Father wanted.
  3. Jesus was SENT, not to please himself, but to please His father.
  4. He was SENT into the world to represent God, and so that when people saw Him, they would see the Father.
  5. Jesus could do nothing apart from God, he was totally dependent on his Father.
  6. He wasn’t SENT with his own words and doctrine, he was SENT with the teachings of God.
  7. Jesus was not alone, because his sender always went with him.
  8. Jesus was BUSY doing the work he was SENT to do, and when his work was finally done, he went home to be with God.

John 20:21 says, ‘as the Father has sent me, I am sending you’. So that got me thinking, if all these things are true for Jesus, does that mean they are true for me? 

So I ask, if you pray, can you please pray over these things for me? 

  • Pray that I will know that I am not going to Brazil to do my own work, but rather the work God has planned and sent me to do. 
  • That in everything I do, I would seek not to please myself, but to please God. 
  • That when people see me, they will see God shining through me
  • That I would know that ultimately, nothing I do in Brazil will be possible without God and that I will seek Him in everything I do.
  • That I will be able to cover myself with biblical truths that will clothe me with strength.
  • That even though I am going to the other side of the world, I will know that  I am never alone.
  • And finally, that even in the midst of all the work I am doing in Brazil, that I will never feel overwhelmed.

Brazil, I am on my way. 

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